I’m going to begin posting beautiful pictures of the fairy food I eat again. Why? I’m ready.Finally. It’s going to be so wonderful.Lots of fruits and veggies and nuts in beautiful shapes. Just wait. Just wait.
inside of love. outside. I didn’t realize I could step in and out so easily. I didn’t know I could cross a line. Once there was a boy that played with my head. Not like ordinary boys. He blended pain and happiness in my heart. He killed all the butterflies in my stomach and left them to rot. He tried to kiss me, but I knew with one kiss I would rot too. So, now I question everything. He was the evil inside my heart I tried to ignore. The voice in my head that told me I was weak and beautiful and terrible and unlovable and lovely and disgusting and wonderful in physical form. My heart and mind so jumbled. He would tell me everything I wanted to hear. Everything sweet. But it was a sickness. A sadness in his heart that lead him to his victims. Hoping only to mock and harass and leave girls just as dead and empty as he. Now I see you. I love you. But that same turning feeling of worry won’t go away. The fear that again love is playing with my feelings in attempts to leave me so bitter I dream only of dying.
I just want to be perfect……….you judge me so severely then laugh when I try to be everything.